This isn't what I planned

It's raining outside...a nice rain that I think the plants need. At first it was really storming with lots of scary lightening but now it is much more calm and more of a beneficial rain. So what should I do? Normally I go outside after work and water anything that looks thirsty and then just walk around with my hands on my hips taking a bug inventory and deciding what to do about them. But today I think I'm banished to the indoors. Well, I'll do what I always do. I'm a cross-stitcher and have taken on a project which, judging just from the size the of the thing, was sent straight from hell. When I ordered it I didn't realize I was getting the 16x20 version of one my favorite paintings...Paul Gauguin's 'When Will You Marry'. These are two sisters from Mataiea Village, Tahiti. The younger sister in the front has a beau and wants to marry. But she cannot until her older sister is betrothed. I just think the telling expression on the older sister's face could be on any of our faces. When I look at her, I imagine she's thinking, "Again with the marraige thing?!" She looks a little disgusted that this thing she probably wants (I only assume) still hasn't happened. And maybe she's even a little angry about it even before her younger sister brings it up, AGAIN. I think we all have dreams in our lives that we just always thought would happen...and that they would happen in a timing that's to our liking. I can't explain how we get that impression but we seem to be born with it. Every time I pick up my scroll frame with the massive piece of fabric (most of which is still blank even though I've been working on it for a year and a half) I look at that older sister's face and concentrate on her frustration. It's a human emotion...I think I won't deny it of myself. I'll allow myself to have it and once I'm done with it I'll move on to the next piece of thread.